Things are looking up more and more

Wow it seems like in the last week or so my life has been low and high at the same time...I have had a lot of stress with school and love relationships and just life in general...School has been so stressful..I have had so many papers due and tests and assignments..I just felt like I was drowning in work and I wasnt going to be able to get my head above water. but its getting better my test grades are coming up and I am getting back on track with assignments and everything so that is pretty awesome...
The love life is getting better. I have had a serious talk with the one I love and he and I together are going to sit down and talk to my parents so that is exciting before it was just up to me to do and for me to figure out what to say and how to say it but today he told me that we will do it together so that is really exciting for me! Im just really happy that he has decided that he needs to do this with me because if our relationship is ever going to work then we have to start doing things together and acting like a couple...I dunno its just really exciting because we have gone through a lot with our relationship over the past 4 or 5 years and I am just ready for it to get better and for us to act like a couple and be a couple...it would be great if we could....
At home things have been crazy...my nephew Collin Daniel was finally born on March 30, 2008 so that is really exciting! He is so adorable!! things are crazy around here because now we have a 2 year old in the house and a baby in the house...crazy!! but I need to get back to some hw and we are fixing to eat dinner...

Captivating

I ran across a quote as I was reading a book called Captivating by John and Stasi Eldredge. This book is a very inspiring book. It shows that your heart matters more than anything else in this world. The quote actually made me cry because when you think about it, deep down this is what every girl wants:
I want to be beautiful
And make you stand in awe
Look inside my heart
And be amazed
I want to hear you say
Who I am is quite enough
I just want to be worthy of you
And beautiful
~Bethany Dillon, "Beautiful"
When you think and you look deep inside yourself isn't that something as a woman you have always longed for? Isn't that what they teach us in all of these movies portraying princess' being swept up by their prince charming? And when they first see each other do they not stop and just stare at each other? Its like a magic that is taking place. Something is striking them and making them realize that the person they are standing in front of is the person they should be with for the rest of their life? Does that really happen in real life? Do you really stand there in awe and wonder? Is it a time stopping moment? I'd like to think that it is, not only because that is what I have dreamed about since childhood, but also because I wonder if that has happened to me already. I guess if I have to wonder then it probably didn't happen right? I don't think so. Its something that is in you all of your life. I think you just know who you are supposed to spend the rest of your life with. It's just something that comes naturally to you. Don't you think?

My first Blog

So I am so excited about having a blog...somewhere to put all of my thoughts and feelings of the moment. Somewhere to just let it all loose. Finally. This is going to be my release whether it be school, family,friends, work, love, life whatever it is, this is where I will let my feelings show. So I welcome you to my blog and invite you to come back. See where the road will take us